Miss You Much

When you walked away, I stared twice at your back where your shadow had dropped into my heart at that moment...

I wish there was a camera to capture on...Just to remember what is the last scene of us...

I wish that you could turn and have a look at me once more, before you go...

I wish so much to chase you back after you've walked away, but I knew there was no choice for me, you still have to go in the end... That's the cruelty of the reality...

Later on, I've chosen to proceed to the place where I belong to, without looking back at you again...

I kept my sadness then...
Remained in my heart...

The distance had made me breathless yet missing each part of our time when you are not here with me... It had seriously drove me crazy in this night...

I miss the time when your cares are always there for me every time I need them,
I miss the time when we are staring each other without any replacements,
I miss the words when you whispered to me,
I miss your shoulder where I wish to cry on once I feel lonely,
I miss your embrace where I miss you so much that you can't ever imagine...
At last, I've forced to wait for you again...
see you

A lonely night

It's a lonely night...
I wish to see a falling star infront of my eyes, but I couldn't see it at all...
I wish there was an angel who tell me that she can accompany me for the whole night, but I still couldn't find anyone of the angels through out the night...
Seem helpless...
Once I close my eyes, I dream of everything that I wish not to happen in my real life...
At this moment,
I miss my home a lot... I miss my family and my sisters....
I miss those time when I can't sleep, there is someone who accompany me...
In Uni life,
I miss that time when I was crying, and there is someone who immediately put away the work, and accompany me for a night walk...to console me...
It's memorable...but
I do not hope it will happen again, let the memories remain at the same place...and I will just walk away from there...
In this midnight, I think a lot... Suddenly every problem that I'm facing now just pop-out from my mind...good and bad
Where I can't control myself anymore and I cry in this silence of the midnight... I cry as much as I can...seems crying out all the problems and sweep them away by my fingers...
In our life, we just can't choose a path as what we like... even It's difficult to choose between two paths... Once you stepped wrongly, there is no way for you to return and start it all over again...there is no way...no choice...

It's almost 4 morning...
and it's cold outside...
I just can't sleep, just simply don't know why...
Is there anyone else besides me?

No Need

Where ever you go, where ever you step, there is no need for you to look back...

Just simply because I've tear off the old calenders, where I have found my happiness in my new calenders...

I've left all Hurts and Desperation behind...

Even lucks are not always with me, but, at least, there are no memories anymore...

There are no more lies and secrets which you have hided them well before...

So.....

No need to worry about me,
coz I don't need them

No need to pray for me,
coz I can pray for myself

No need to say hi to me,
coz I've given away to others

No need to say bye to me,
coz there is not even a hi

No need to praise me,
coz it doesn't mean anything to me

No need to wish me,
coz there are still lots of wishes from others

No need to care about me,
coz there is no cares from you, for me, since the beginning...


What I know is that I will appreciate what I have now, even in the future...

Hope this will not bring any disappointments to me...

Live as happy as you can,
Live as strong as you can,
If you can...

Remember, without a relationship, doesn't mean you have nothing...