再见了

真想不到这六年的感情，就在今年结束了。。
我不想再执著我们这段友谊，但却又放不下你,因为你已住进我心里。。
你是我这一生最要好的朋友 。。
我们经过了这么多的风风雨雨，许多我俩的回忆，不管是美好或伤心的，我都会记得。。。
我们曾经深深伤害了对方，是因为太在乎了。。
有时不是对方不重视你，而是你太在乎对方了。。
同样的，我并不是对你毫不在乎，而是你太在乎小事了。。。
最近我都在忙学业，少联络你，你一定觉得我把你给忘了。。。
我不懂要怎样再次挽回，因为我知道你已为我们的友谊画上句号了。。
你曾经说过你以平常心看待我，现在呢？？在街上遇到我时，是否不再跟我打个招呼，转头就走？？
我看见你的postout了，你说“不要只在你伤心的时候找我...以为可耻的 自私是分享...以分享掩饰炫耀的借口.. .遐想里的希望都被你埋没了...是你送我 搭上离开的烈车...再见了...心中的好朋友”
我懂你是写给我看的。。
老公，你突然又再次离开了我，在我生命中再次没有你的日子会是怎样的呢？？？我不敢去想，我选择逃避，虽然知道我逃不过。。
如果伤害了你，我只能在这说对不起。。
你是不可能看到我的blog的。。只想说出我的心声。。。
我会把你收在心里。。
我会尝试习惯你的不存在。。尝试不再执著。。。
我不想让你走，很伤心，很难过。。。
但我哭不出。。。
也许离开对我俩都好。。。
只有祝福你。。。

Is that wrong???

Recently,you make me feel that everything I did was wrong...
Everytime when I make my decision, I was thinking of you...
I will ask you whether I should do this or that, that's my respect for you...
Always trying hard to find out what is in your mind and whether your opinions are totally different from me or not...
I always thinking of what is call right and wrong in my life...
I have my own opinions and decisions, do I???
I remember that one of my uncles smiled to me and told me that "It's a learning process...It's time for you to learn it...I experienced it before...It's not easy, but you must learn it...That's nothing called right or wrong"...
I will take this as a guidance...thanks a lot, uncle...
I hope to go back to hostel now... I miss my kampar life where I have my own right to choose what I like and don't...

Nowadays

Nowadays, really happened lots of things among my friends and family...
how bout myself??? I was very busy with my assignments, busy listening 2 others' problems, busy controlling my own emotions ...

It has been few weeks I didn't contact my good friends, I knew one of them will think that I've forgotten her, but I really didn't...coz you are always in my heart...I don't know how I should tell you this, I know you won't listen to me...

There were some problems having among house mates also...I don't know I should presence in their problems or not, but I really do hope that It will be settled soon...We are one big family throughout one year plus...I do not wish to have any quarrels among us...Cheers 1467!!!

Suddenly, I think of my family, I miss them much... Few days ago, daddy called me... The first thing that he said was that I didn't phone them when I'm in Kampar...He asked me to be careful in Kampar too...I admit that I really seldom phone them and meet them... I was sad that I didn't do my part as a good daughter... I always busy with my own things and neglected them... I was sorry about that...I've decided to go back home tomorrow after my Japanese class...wish to see them soon...my popo hospitalize during new year time...see her suffering all the time coz of serious stomachache...haiz...

I found that this semester was a tough one... There are lots of assignments need to be done...2 weeks at least 1 assignment, yet I can't install the illustrator program into my laptop... there are 2 illustrator work waiting for me now... I have to use my friend's lap top for temporary... Even the pointillism which required us to use dots to have our drawing done, takes me more than 15 hours...tomorrow I'll have Japanese test =.=

Because of the japanese class is on Saturday, I don't think I'll have time to go back home every weekends T.T

It's been a week I didn't update my blog, that's what happened nowadays...We can't run away from reality even we try hard to escape...